- Refuge Writing
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At a summer camp this year, one of the messages brought me to the realization that when it comes to both God and the rest of life, I tend to keep my expectations really low. I think I do this because I’m afraid of being hurt — when you have high expectations or hopes and they go unfulfilled, or your hopes “get crushed,” it causes a lot of pain and disappointment. And so, whenever I asked God for help with anything it was always with a mindset of, “well, I guess I’ll ask, and I hope He helps, but I’m not going to hope too hard, just in case He doesn’t — I’m not going to really put all my expectation in Him, in case nothing happens.”
However, in a really crazy coincidence (that I believe wasn’t actually a coincidence at all), I had – even before hearing that message – gone into the summer camp with really high expectations! You see, this summer was the very end of high school for me, and going into the next part of life (adulthood, yikes!) has been pretty stressful, and I’ve felt a ton of pressure around figuring out what I should do with my life, and what job to go for, and what college classes to take, etc. Because of all this, I was feeling pretty desperate, and decided (well, maybe not “decided,” it’s too deliberate of a word for what I was feeling) that I was going to give Him my all, and really go after listening to what He had to say to me.
And He was there! I mean, obviously He’s always with us, but knowing that and experiencing it are so different. To put it very plain and simple, I had questions, and He gave answers!
Of course, they weren’t exactly the answers I had expected or asked for, but honestly they were so much better than what I had wanted. I went into it thinking I wanted to know what job to do, but instead of telling me something like, “being a Spanish professor is the way I want to work through you, Ransom,” He revealed/pointed out to me the obvious yet crazy mindblowing truth that I had lost sight of, that wherever I go, and whatever I do, He can work through me and with me. And that as long as I am doing it with Him and for Him, it really doesn’t matter what career(s) I choose.
Anyways, all that to say, God really does respond, you’ve just got to go after Him!
— Ransom W.